Late as hell but here it is
I got a compliment on some thumbnails today that blew my hair back: "These are the best thumbnails i've seen in my eight years of teaching".
"Damn, that's nice of you to say" i thought "but could you get me a fucking job though cause i'm hungry all the time these days." I can't post those amazing thumbnails cause it's a secret for a real deal for serious project or something.
Also i did this on the 28th but totally forgot to post
I was gonna do a big Genocide Dogs piece for my big finale, but i was in class all day working on this project that i'm not allowed to post, so this is all i could come up with. Apologies. Real talk:
This was probably my worst Feb since i started doing Febs. I only posted maybe half the days this time around. I don't so much feel like making excuses but i do like examining things, seeing where i went wrong. It could be I was pretty busy this semester, i came home late most nights and just felt like going straight to bed, maybe i should have set my deadline time to 4:00am or something later. I think i was smart enough to have done that on previous years, bad move this time. Even right now as i'm typing this i have a thing i should be working on, due come sun up. It could be that Feb's kind of a big thing now, and i think maybe the size of this year gave me evil thoughts like "nobody will even notice if i don't post today". Yeah yeah that's not what it's about, i know. But I do miss the closeness of community in the old days or whatever. I hating being in my twenties and saying things like "old days". What an asshole this guy.
Seriously though this is like a real thing now. Adi Granov did it this year. Like, I own books that dude did. I didn't know what to put in his thread though, so i never really commented on anything he did, despite his stuff being awesome. I did this for a lot of people, for some reason it was really difficult for me to search out people's threads and give them feedback or pats on the back or what have you, even when their stuff was amazing and i loved it. So apologies to everyone i didn't visit or comment on. I really do feel like that's a huge part of why this had always been fun for me, and that was kinda not happening this time around. I used to like to take time to write dopey things, and read everybody else's dopey things. I have memories of actually crying laughing at the stuff we used to post.
Also to be honest i've fallen out of the drawing game lately. I actually hadn't been drawing too much prior to this February, i for real considered not doing it this year. I mostly just do the stuff i'm told in school and don't touch pen to paper otherwise. I don't really know why, falling out of love with it maybe, or maybe it's a slump. But there is something in me now that seems different in that i don't actually love drawing the way i used to, shit used to be the tits. Now I more find myself loving things like food, money, sleep, ladies, guitar, and being with friends. But again, could be just a phase. I think it shows in my work though, i honestly don't see a marked improvement from this year to last year, i maybe even see myself having gotten worse, or at least less imaginative, and definitely shittier at actually posting.
Overall I think this month was good for me though, i got reacquainted with some pals, and it reminded me that: Hey, drawing is a thing that you do, remember? Oh yeah i remember this. Cool.
This could be a motivator for me to get back into things...
Starting to get Cog-length so i'll stop. I love anyone who clicked on this thread at any point during this month. Yoor beautiful.